Theo Von Admits His Struggle With Jesus (Gets Emotional)

In a raw and emotionally charged episode of the Ruslan KD Podcast, comedian Theo Von opens up about his deep struggle with faith, addiction, and the painful cycle of self-sabotage that has defined much of his adult life. He admits to feeling trapped in a loop of loneliness, overindulgence, and regret—driven by a fear of change and a deep-seated belief that he’s unworthy of love. What makes this moment powerful is Theo’s vulnerability in admitting that even when he prays for help, a part of him knows he’ll fall back into old patterns. He shares how he’s begun to pray not just for change, but for God to enter the broken, deceitful parts of himself—the 'walls of the well,' not just the water. This shift in prayer, rooted in honesty and self-awareness, has become a lifeline. Ruslan KD uses this moment to explore the biblical concept of transformation: putting off the old self corrupted by deceitful desires and putting on the new self renewed in knowledge and holiness. He draws from Romans, Ephesians, and Colossians to emphasize that true freedom isn’t found in perfection, but in the ongoing, cooperative work of grace. The episode then pivots to a stark contrast with the disturbing case of David (D4VD), a Christian TikTok preacher whose public faith clashes horrifically with allegations of murdering a 14-year-old girl.