The Hidden Cost of Mormon Belief: Conditioned From Childhood

In this powerful episode of Radio Free Mormon, host Bill and guest Dr. Samuel Clemens, a licensed clinical social worker and PhD researcher, delve into the profound psychological impact of growing up in the LDS Church, particularly for LGBTQ+ individuals. Clemens shares findings from his dissertation research, which explores religious trauma among former LDS members who identify as sexual minorities. He explains how the church's rigid doctrines—such as the criminalization of same-sex attraction, the emphasis on heteronormative marriage, and the expectation of perfection—create a lifelong cycle of guilt, shame, and self-monitoring. These internalized rules, often enforced through fear and conditional love, lead to long-term emotional and behavioral consequences, including substance abuse, self-harm, and high-risk behaviors. Clemens emphasizes that trauma isn't limited to catastrophic events but stems from repeated microaggressions and identity suppression, which affect the nervous system and body in lasting ways. He also highlights how the system trains individuals to police themselves, making external enforcement unnecessary. Despite the harm, Clemens offers hope, noting that healing is possible through therapy, community, and reclaiming autonomy. He urges both individuals and the church to foster empathy, authenticity, and structural change to reduce future harm.